MICHAEL did we know you?

July Fourth!!!! A day of forging new ideas.... of Change..Changes...Trying to Change?

Aw well, let me take on this new challenge of blogging......putting my thoughts on paper...hmmm where to begin?

Thoughts on....Michael

Only one Michael---well, that is not entirely true. Mr Jackson came in more than one style--and truly all of them his own.

I must admit that I am having many feelings & thoughts on his life & death. My first & most immediate thoughts of him are as a young boy---the Jackson five. This impish happy, charesmatic little boy with his whole future in front of him. Virtually Glowing with Excitement. Man, the boy could move! He made watching him an experience. Little did I know at that time what a experience and roller coaster ride his life would be.

I think part of my macabe fascination with his death is because I want to understand what happened? What was going on in his mind? What things effected him in such a manner to bring about all of the changes he went through. What was it Michael? Tell me. And now..we can only muse about it. I think I wanted the day to come, when he was old, and being retrospective, he would explain his life and changes to all of us. To me it is fascinating to think of his mind & what was firing around in there.

My heart is heavy for this whole situation. My feelings caught me by surprise. I think it is more of the not knowing, but always hoping someday I would understand. It seems that such talent, creativity & genius is often so close to " insanity", paranoia, mania, depression.....thin line between genius & insanity. It does seem to go hand in hand. But by anyone's standard he was Genius. I've learned more about this over the past week and a half...and gained even more admiration (as I try to erase all the controversies from my memories & mind--don't go there) for the man/boy.


Till then, Michael will be a coated in a vaseline like substance----sometimes making him sparkle & glow, sometimes people just wanting to "smear" it, sometimes as a protective suit of armour---don't touch, look at me! go away! come here! sometimes as a statue, But all the while....thinking, creating, and often, just wanting to wash it all off & just "BE"


We will miss you Michael. You will be immortal. Your music & dance have made music/dance history. Thank you for all of that & may you now be in peace